Future

During a long time, I lived between the past and the future, and I didn't have the occasion to live the present time. I use to have great ideals and my boring life didn't let me making true at the moment my dreams and what I wanted: in other words, I always planned my future to have a better life and used to dream about my past, I was quite nostalgic. Today I think I'm living my dreams and not dreaming my life, or not so much. I'm much more an actor of my own life than to remain passive in front of the events. I still need to go back to my past by nostalgy and to wonder why could have happened if I hadn't done that but not as a complain but as a kind of therapy. Nowadays I don't want to change my past because I cannot change it, but I need it to accept what happened. So I put much more energy in the present to build my future.

I believe that I need making plans all the time and there's no matter if my plans change, it's the rule of the time to overthrow everything or to make different our point of view. Who could have told me two years ago that I will be here in Chile, having the best time of my life and the most wonderful experience at 20? Not me but what I was sure is that I wanted deeply to live what I lived and wanted change, to live my own life and I knew that could be possible once I would be free and totally independent.

So imagining me in the future, it's surely coming into and revealing a part of my ideals and of my dreams. 10 years later... I will be 30... wow it seems to be like a nightmare and to be forced to live like the characters of Sex and the City. A busy life, perhaps still looking for love and having the same desperating affairs, travelling, having a great job in a world totally different at the era of all technology and in the nomadism life. I think in the future, I don't really know what I would be, what I really want to be, but what I know is that the world will not be as it is today and what our parents and grand parents thought about their own life. The world is changing too quickly to be sure of what we are going to do. As a matter of fact, in their time, they didn't do what they wanted to be neither, or so less people really did it. In the world of today and tomorrow, I thought that the "Nomade life" will be my life because I didn't imagine me staying in an office or in my country. I saw me working as a kind of job of diplomate, or into politics, or for international organization or company, working for the future at the era of great problems that I think we are going through. Starting in Brussels, then Buenos Aires, going back to Santiago of Chile, then going to Mexico City or Rio de Janeiro, staying a while in New York to help for a grand project, opening a galery of photography in Los Angeles, being addictive to modernism in Tokyo, seeing an Opera in Sydney, and not just working but also travelling again, escape me from this unbearable and stressful reality, to make the most of what will rest of our old world taking the Transsiberian to cross from Eastern Europe, all Russia till Vladivostock, going to Oulan Bator, crossing the Australian desert, and going to another great trip in South America...

As you can see everything is not planned, probably you think I didn't really see myself into ten years but this the way I think it will be in a world that cannot be imagined with the world we are living in today, or what I want to say is that from the world of today I cannot imagine me in the same situation, with the same environment, the world is going to change deeply and not at the same time, I'm changing but I remain the same after all... I just hope to not lose my ideals until death, because for me it will be the sign that I'm getting old, we are all growing up, but are getting older quickly those who have stopped having or never had great ideals...